Last week my youngest started Kindergarten. So, yes, my days are childless for the rest of my life now. The. Rest. Of. My. Life. It’s still hard to get used to, but I’m making progress.
For almost 14 years now I have had a child with me, every day. It’s crazy how time flies. You go from nursing a newborn and struggling with sleepless nights thinking it’s going to last forever and then they’re entering high school and you’re left trying to find where the time has gone.
I know, you’ve probably heard it a million times from people, as a parent, to soak up every moment and make beautiful memories. And yes, it is that simple. Just enjoy every moment because it does go quicker than it feels. When they want to play Candyland for the 15th time, just do it. When they want to listen to a song for the 100th time, just do it. You will miss it.
The first day, she just wanted to go. Just wanted me to drop her off and leave. She’s a big girl now. GEEEEEEZ Mom! Luckily I still had to turn in her registration papers, so I had an excuse to walk in with her;)
Walking in to that cafeteria and seeing her sitting there eating and visiting with her friends really pulled on those heart strings. She is so grown up now and I am officially done with the baby/toddler/preschooler age.
As I sit here now, alone, I still feel that emptiness in my gut that I hope will soon go away. I absolutely love watching my children grow and find themselves, but at the same time I miss fixing there snacks and meals. I miss my days filled with reading, Paw Patrol, little people toys, and art work.
Transitions have always been difficult for me and right now a little more difficult since losing my job two weeks before school started. I firmly believe everything happens for a reason and with age I have learned to embrace change. Learning to not stress about the little things has been a difficult road, but I am beyond blessed with incredible people that love and support me.
We recently let Sugar the Mini out with the rest of the herd of horses. She is beyond happy, but my dads gelding has felt the need to pick on her. I’m on my way to go check on her and hoping they can learn to get along.
